It's been a bit since my last blog-- I keep saying I'm going to get better at this and write every day to become in a habit. I'll be doing something or reading something and say "this would be awesome to blog about.." then those thoughts just ponder away somewhere in mommy brain and I don't remember..
Regardless, let me start by saying I, Heather Edmunds LOVE myself. Those of you that know me well, know how hard I've worked to get to this place, but you only live once right? So WHY should I worry about all the things I can't change? Much easier said than done, right? Two years ago, this blog would have never been written, heck 2 months ago it wouldn't have happened.. BUT the closer I walk with God the more I come to terms with that he made me and if he is proud and loves me there is no logical reason why I shouldn't love myself.
I work hard, I take care of my family, I take care of myself, and I'm learning to STOP obsessing about what I eat, drink, or look like. Quite frankly I'm stronger than I've ever been in my life, and even if I'm never as "skinny" as the girl in those magazines we all admire-- guess what I'm okay with that. My husband doesn't seem to mind a little curve. I know I do my best, while staying happy and that's all the matters. I'm learning that if I want to drink a soda or eat a slice of cake, or heck both at the same time-- life will still be okay. I'll just work out twice as hard. ;) Regardless, all my life I have lived in the jail of me, never pretty enough, never thin enough, never GOOD enough... but ya know what?! I'm free, because God allowed me to be.
If only we could all live as carefree as this cutie! Yes, I have been on anti-depressants for the last year, because it was a damn hard year--- but I'm one month away from saying GOOD-BYE to that chapter of my life and I feel better than ever. What I've learned is that as humans, we are all prone to make mistakes, we are all prone to be hard on ourselves, and never feel up to our own standards--- but when we become prisoners to ourselves and are never able to fully live life, then what are we truly living for? Is my life perfect right now? NOPE, but honestly it never will be, I'm just better at dealing now. I am blessed beyond belief at the things I do have though, an amazing husband (most of the time ;), a remarkable little boy, a fur-baby who has truly helped me more than anything, a house I call a home, a dependable car that gets me where I need to go, and all the essentials in life.
In God I have my HOPE and HE is my anchor. <3 So if you are reading this right now, and you aren't truly happy with yourself- ask WHY? Because let me tell you, in December I weighed 104lbs and was very thin, but you know what I still wasn't "happy" I longed to still be smaller, nothing was good enough, the woman I saw in the mirror still embarrassed me no matter how many compliments I got. Now, I'm at 115lbs and no I'm not as thin but I'm HAPPY. No, I don't have abs of steel, or a flat stomach, but I'm okay with working on it. I'm content with the way I look now, I'm content with the progress I'm making working out; and of course I'll always strive to be better, but the difference is, I'm not a prisoner to myself anymore. Don't be a prisoner, love your skin, your body, and embrace is because I'm 100% positive that someone else admires you for every aspect about you.
Me, yesterday! #strongmom And lastly ladies--- encourage each other! I can't say enough how if I've had a off day how much a simple compliment brings me up. As women we need to feel pretty, valued, and important. Whether it's a quick text, a facebook post, or a call--- the women and friends in your life that matter--- TELL THEM. Empower them the strive even harder, and value themselves more. Real women encourage each other and lift one another up, be a real woman to yourself, and to others! #strongwomenunited
With much love,
Me <3
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