Soul searching--

Tonight I had a quick glimpse at some self reflection. I feel like a lot of my road bumps have come because of my loss in faith. I see so many bad things happen to good people, I started to question my faith. Then bad things, and more bad things, and then even more bad things began to happen to my family. It has taken a while to understand that it isn't God punishing me, it's the devil trying to push me further away from God in blaming him. BUT-- 

Just like when others have doubted Jesus's worth, and when God put the children first which wasn't heard of during that time because children and women weren't of much importance, it showed that Jesus was able to make big moves in simple ways. We all try to be the best at what we want, but sometimes to make the biggest impression we need to step back and be less than best to see and appreciate things in life and I can definitely understand that. 

Calvin and I have fallen further and further apart and struggle to stay "in sync" but with the help of God, and some very dedicated friends we are working towards reconnecting with each other and our God. 

Go forth in this week, and don't be afraid to make a little splash in a big pond. ❤️

I hope my ramblings make sense to at least one person. ;) 

With love, 

Me

Power of Prayer

I sit here this morning looking at the one $7,000 bill we received from one of two ER trips we had for Braeden, not to mention the children's hospital overnight stay, ultrasounds, and his procedure, bloodwork etc. all of which I'm sure will add up to over $25k easy. 

I start to get overwhelmed, stressed, and wonder how could we ever afford to pay that? THEN I think about a sweet girl, daughter of a sweet couple I went to high school who has been battling leukemia for the last year and discovered two days ago it relapsed. I can't imagine the stress or overwhelmed feeling her parents must be going through with the difficult decisions they have to make now. Thinking about their situation makes mine seem not as stressful. 

So today I will take a step back, create a plan and pay what we can, when we can and go from there. I will pray and pray hard for Claire and her family because at the end of the day their little girl is such a strong little warrior and deserves to be able to grow up and enjoy life like so many other children get to experience. 

Please join me today in praying for Claire Parker❤️