2 days into February

2 days into February and I've felt like poo. All I wanted to do is sleep and I had a lingering headache all weekend. Yuck! I still managed to do my workout even though I really didn't want to. 

I also realized that I left leg lifts off the calendar I made for everyone and I forgot to add extra increments for those who did the previous challenge with me-- maybe for March I'll have it together. This is my first go at preparing workouts and I'll put up a video soon so to anyone ready bare with me- I'm clearly not professional. Lol

Yesterday Calvin and I watched the Gabby Douglas story and can I just say I cried almost the whole movie- good tears but tears because I hope I can be as brave of a mom as she was. I hope Calvin and I can be as strong as she was and allow Braeden to know that no matter what his dreams are always possible. 

I had a friend tell me the other day that Calvin and I were great parents and wanted to know when we were going to have another baby. I was mixed on how to respond because currently I am still takin medication to help treat my depression and Calvin still doesn't have a new job so we are a bundle of hot mess right now; which ironically we should be extra careful because God tends to have a sense of humor. 

The truth is- I'm scared. I love Braeden more than anything in this world and truly want to experience pregnancy again and breastfeeding as well as watching another little being that Calvin and I created grow up but I'm just worried. Not really sure how to word my worries but none the less I answered her in that once things are more stable for us we will decide whether to try again or not. 

Right now I am enjoying Braeden growing up and trying to remember to save energy for him and only him as we believe he is going through some jealousy issues of the other children I do daycare with. 

So we are putting in overtime to remind him how much we love him. :) 

Aside from that things seem to be going better; I really didn't have any bad days this week which was nice. I feel like Calvin and I are back to dating-- things have been so great with him home ❤️ 

We are very excited as a family for our annual beach trip. Every year for Valentines we take a short trip to the beach to celebrate another year we made. We make letters of things that we could have done better throughout the previous year read them and let them float away with the current. It truly is a refreshing experience and I feel like our marriage has been successful because of it. I have learned marriage is hard work- but if you work hard it is the most amazing experience. ❤️🙌

Here's to February and all it's craziness. 😊